Monday, May 6, 2013

Audrey's Mom.....Baby Shower Saga: Part 2

If you read my last post, you know that I was incredibly distraught Friday evening. After discussing it with my mom and bestie, we decided to opt for the outdoor option. My apartment really is tiny in a sense of hosting a party and it just made sense to have more room, especially since we didn't have a final head count. We had a plan to combat the cold. Several people washed up sweaters and blankets to hand out to my guests and my mom got at 42 cup coffee pot to have set up. Then we crossed our fingers and said our prayers and let it go.

Well, the weather turned out to be PERFECT! There were a few gusts of strong wind that sent a couple of things flying, but nothing that couldn't be handled. Everything was just beautiful. My bestie did an AMAZING job at decorating and really bringing who I am and my personality to the entire thing.  The crowd size was perfect. It ended up that out of the 19 that had yet to RSVP, I think maybe 2 finally did (I will NEVER understand that. Horrible etiquette, but sadly, how it is these days.) BUT the guests that were there are so very near and dear to my heart and it was great to see faces that I hadn't seen in awhile. I have pictures from my photographer (Megan Ella Photography) and once I have them, I will show you all the loveliness. Insert shameless plug here: Megan is an incredible photographer should you be in need of one. Several of my guests were highly impressed with her and she even impressed my momma (which can be hard to do as a photographer.)

 All in all many fabulous memories were made and I couldn't have been more pleased. I will share one particular moment of the day that left most everyone in giggles and left me, well....with a large and wonderful dose of reality.

In opening gifts, most of the cards were addressed to: Leslie and Audrey, or Audrey etc. Well one particular gift was addressed to "Audrey's Mom."  Call it instinct, but to me the word "mom" only applies to one person: my mom. So, I grabbed the present and without giving it any thought, handed it to my mother. "Here mom, this is for you."  It took a few seconds but it finally sunk in. "Oh! That's ME! I'm Audrey's mom!" Everyone laughed, including myself, but it actually went much deeper than just a silly mistake. I've never been "mom" to anyone before. Well, Charlie's mom, but she can't actually call me mom. So no one has ever called me "mom" before. When I think about it I'm overwhelmed with emotions; yes, some caused by the pregnancy I'm sure. But for the most part, I know they are just my true feelings. I've wanted so long for someone to call me mom and now it's finally about to happen. I'm humbled and ecstatic at the same time. While I am a woman who wants to hold on to her own sense of self after having a child, I am beyond thrilled and ready to be known as Audrey's mom.


  1. As you said, that was a real dose of reality moment. Loved it!

  2. Leslie--

    I have been following your blog for a few months now after finding it on the Houston (was it?) newspaper website. I completely related to everything you wrote. I am in the extremely early phases of trying to get pregnant and become a single mom. I started the whole process back in August, but am just finally to my second attempt at AI next Monday. I actually cannot wait, and hope desperately that someday I am where you are now in your pregnancy. Congratulations!

    I've kept up with your blog because, as I mentioned, what you write is completely relatable. I have two dogs, am in my early 30s, have my own place, and have a good job. I am happy, and desire a little one to share my happiness with, and whatismore, want to give my parents a grandchild more than words can express.

    Honestly, I wanted to let you know that what you have written has kind of been a guide to the process for me. It's extremely helpful to read the ups-and-downs from someone who is honest about them. It's not some sit-com disaster situation that resolves itself in 22 minutes: it's your real life! I appreciate that. And I was particularly moved today (enough to add my comments) when you discussed in your last paragraph about hearing/reading that you are a Mom for the first time. Wow! That's so powerful. I'm glad that that moment was not lost on you. So many of my friends have 2 and 3 kids... and counting, and don't seem to realize that isn't an inevitable conclusion for all women. Having a child is a miracle of sorts and a responsibility. I'm glad that you haven't taken even a minute of this process for granted.

    Thanks for sharing your story so candidly. I'm excited to hopefully see the little plus sign sometime in my future. In the meantime, I'll read your blog and follow up on the love that has created little Audrey!

    Best wishes,

    Heather from Kansas City

    1. Heather,

      Thank you so much for your comments! I was very moved (to tears, but we will chalk that up to the hormones. Lol!)

      I wish you the BEST of luck on your journey. I remember being at the place you are at right now. It's been a little over a year since I first started the process and it feels like a lifetime ago. The process truly will change your life forever. Not just becoming a mom (I can't really say how that changes you, since I'm not quite there yet.) but the entire process of fertility treatments, doctor appointments, people's reactions etc. It will challenge you in ways you never thought possible and bring out a side of you that you didn't know existed. But seeing that plus sign is worth every single needle prick, crazy look and tear shed.

      Word of warning, it will take at least 6 months into the pregnancy to kick in that you really are pregnant! :) Sometimes I still don't feel like it's real.

      Again, good luck!!! I admire you greatly for your decision. Let me know how it goes!